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Its Not Your Fault
It's not your fault.
I've always knew.
That's just who you are.
The blame isn't on you.
I've tried to except it.
Looked past it.
Yet it still lingered.
In the back of my mind.
I feel for you.
Watched you turn.
Became someone else.
When your anger burned.
I've tried to be there.
Given you my shoulder.
Wrapped around your finger.
Anything to make you smile.
Sitting there all alone.
Waiting on you again.
Wondering when you'd come.
Feeling alone but with someone.
You don't understand.
Your too different.
I only know what I feel.
Waiting in line.
For a few precious moments.
All my efforts.
Were worth nothing.
Staying up all night.
Holding you tight.
Not wanting to waste,
any second I had with you.
But you'll never understand.
You only do when I'm gone.
Then you miss me.
But you don't see.
You had me.
Right infront of you.
Everything else came first.
As I sat there waiting.
Waiting for a chance.
To be first in line.
Your top priority.
I deserve more.
I demanded your full attention.
Still never got it.
You were preoccupied.
With something else.
I've tried to fit in.
I just wanted to belong.
Maybe I'm too boring.
I wanted a simple life.
With someone reliable.
I knew it wouldn't work.
When I couldn't trust you.
I have to be cautious.
I'd better keep my distance.
I'm better off without you.
Though I'm broken inside.
I've grown accustomed.
I'll live through this.
Its not the end of the world.
You'll find someone else.
Who'll wait on you.
They'll be able to understand.
To see where your coming from.
Because I thought I could.
But I can't.
I've already been through that.
It hits too close to home.
I don't want to be involved.
Its petty of me to say that.
I know,but thats how I feel.
I don't need the struggle.
I don't need the heartache.
The truth hurts.
So does everythig else.
So its not your fault.
I just thought you changed.
I believed you when you told me so.
Some things are too good to be true.
So don't be mad.
Continue on your path.
Do for you first.
Then everything should be okay.
I gotta be me.
See where this life takes me.
I crave peace of mind.
Something simple and devine.
I can't find it with someone else.
It can only be found in myself.
