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Patience Is A Virtue
I'll never find what I'm looking for.
I don't want to end up in another situation.
In reality in this llife I think nobody wins.
I'm missing a vital part of myself.
I can't seem to get myself started.
Life moves on but I'm in a dust cloud.
Depressions "Dust Bowl"has left me empty.
I hunger constantly for something I'll never find.
I crave affection from another but don't want to bother.
Having my cake and eatting it too,just to replace you.
But that's the wrong reason to go about this,
I wish I was foreign to all this lonliness.
I have to move on and start over again,
Unlike you it's not so easy for me.
I can't escape all the guilt you've put on me.
I want to live this life and be ultimately happy.
But with another I don't see how it can be.
Withdrawn and sullen is how they describe me.
If only they knew the real me they'd see.
That I'm not as stuck up as the make me out to be.
I want to give my heart to another but love's never free.
Everything comes with a cost.
Right now I can't afford to be bought.
I shoud'nt focus everything on my past.
That's the only thing I've had to rely on .
Me myself and I were always my constant companions.
I can't walk around in a make believe world,
I'm no longer trying to chase the fairy-tale.
I can't even tell what feels real anymore.
I'm prepared to give them my body but not my heart.
It's been burnt from the start,
Why do I fear what they'll think?
I feel like I'm on the brink.
I'm on this verge in my life.
Where nothing seems to be going right.
I just feel this uncomfortableness.
Deep within my soul there's a emptiness.
A hole I can't seem to fill.
Being lovesick is making me too ill.
I'm not asking for much in this life.
I don't want to pick out curtains.
I'm not looking for a white pickett fence.
I'm just hoping one day I'll be able to but down my defence.
I wonder if everything I've gone through has made a deference.
Learn from your mistakes,but I keep on making them.
I guess I want to feel accepted by someone.
I want to feel part of somebody's world.
If this is to happen I need to move on.
The past has and never will be my friend.
In truth everything has to come to an end.
I left so I have to stay gone.
I can't continue living this life so wrong.
I've been broken for way too long.
I know no one holds the key to my happiness.
I have to find it within myself.
So I won't be putting my burden on anyone else.
I can't focus on us until I'm fine with me.
That's just how it's always been and has to be.
Let's just keep it light and fluffy.
Cause' when I love too heavy I can't breathe.
Being smothered and weighed down doesn't suit me.
I need to be my own person.
I hate being tied down to someone.
I'm a contradiction I know realize.
I say I want one thing then rebel against it.
I just don't like feeling trapped.
I can't give someone everything that I am.
Cause' if I we're to loose I'd end up with nothing.
It's just my twisted way of thinking.
I need to stay withdrawn at the moment.
Distance makes the heart grow fonder,
But when you were mine,
I wanted you no longer.
I just wanted what was best for me.
Though I'm bitter and lonely,
I know I brought this on myself.
It's the price I had to pay.
To be the maker of my own destiny.
I'm glad that you're happy.
I can't replace what I had with you so easily.
No one can just filll my slot,
I have to wait and be patient.
They say patience is a virtue.
It saddens mine ran out with you.
