Fearful

I must be out my head

What am I thinkin?

What’s wrong with mind?

I haven’t been drinkin

To see you again

That’s bad enough

But the worst part about it

Is to give in to my lust

Knowing how you are

And where you have been

In and out of dope houses

In and out the pen

You push weight to make money

You’ve never gone to work

You flip out over little things

You get crazy and go berserk

You’ve man handled me before

You’ve left me beaten all alone

Came all that way to do that

Over something I said on the phone

You took my precious gift

And confused my childish wit

You told me that you loved me

And all that other bullshit

For eleven years- after all that

I’ve stayed by your side

From all the foolish feelings I feel

There’s nowhere I can hide

You’ll always be my first true love

Even if it wasn’t shared

But to have you around me once again

It makes me a little scared

I’ll stay around to talk to you

And I’ll be here if you need a friend

But it can never go beyond this point

That’s where it has to end

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Written for my "first love" Aaron (aka A-Locc)

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