Lost Me

It’s hard to resist the thoughts of you

Just wanting to feel that touch that touched me

Touched the inside all the way to the outside

I close my eyes and think of you

And all those things you said to me

All those things you said to me

Never in my life had I heard the things you said to me

Never did I put so much thought in to me

Me

Me

Now I’m putting all my thought in to you

Wondering why

What went wrong?

What did I say?

What did I not say?

I thought that the thoughts of you would be gone by now

They won’t disappear

They’re still here

Your voice echoes

Your smile blinds me

The thought of your touch still makes my body tingle

Oh

What could I do to get you back to touching me?

Touching me

Touch me

The long nights we spent on the phone

Mind sexing until verbal orgasmic exhilaration

The poetry I shared and the ideas you communicated

Harmonious

We are one mind

I think you might have been put here for me

For inspiration

For completion

To make me whole

To purify my heart

To distil my mind

To make me

Me

Me

I’m not sure why you brought the happiness you brought

In the short time you were with me

I’m not sure why you caused the anguish you caused

When you decided you didn’t want to be with me

Your eyes held your secrets and I knew them

And my face held the honesty

And you knew that

And the verbal friendship we had

Was simply divine

Erotic

Beautiful

Welcome

You made me feel like I could be

Me

Me

Me

But I need you to make me find me again

So I have to ask

Where are you?

Author's Notes/Comments: 

To Nathaniel

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