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May 3 2008



You know by now I'm not even sure if your reading this. You know Tiffany I never knew it was gonna be this hard. Days been coming and going so fast. You know life can be real repetitous you know, same ole same. It seems like having to move on from what we had has definately been a strain. It's definately not your fault I guess it just really hurts when you see so many people moving on around you. Where I live and the environment just seems so depressing to me. It definately doesn't help that we live so close as you know. I avoid that shopping center near to you because of fear of running into you both.I don't why it's so hard for me, it's just that going through this alone is very difficult.Man I thought Madolyn was rough but honestly the level of difficulty seemed to be higher now.It's something about this time to be different. God it hurts bad. I just wonder why i'm at this age even feeling like this. It's very embarrassing. I guess I wish I had more time to be around you and see you. You just seemed to be taken away from me so quickly. That's why I wanted to see you that day, just wanted to look into your face and tell me. Look me in my eyes. See what I was feeling. These words just show a small portion of what I feel. My mother has been real concerned about me because she asks me about it from time to time. I don't bring up what i've been personally going through to her. She knows i've been hiding my pain inside. That's why you notice I haven't really written the REAL deep stuff. Don't think I did'nt love you Tiffany because I did. It's just so sad we lost that bond that we had at one time. How we held hands united in church. I feel bad because maybe if I was in a better position it would have been better. I let down you and I let down myself.It tears me up to know another man replaced me and doing those things you really like that is taking care of your needs. It also hurts when you say you've been busy. Sometimes I almost feel like I can't even date another woman in this city. I don't even know if I can handle breaking up with someone and them dating someone in the same city. Sometimes I feel like a soulless zombie going back and forth to work. God get me out of this place because i'm going not be in the mood one day and serious hurt someone in this job. I have to get out of here. It's getting very close. Just need a new start and a clean slate. I look at some of our photos and you look so happy to be with me. I don't even know why I even look at them anymore.But I do. Every day that goes by I wonder what it would be just to run into you or see you. You know this trip is coming right on time because i've been real sad baby. I wish I knew why. Wish I had the answers. I just wish I had the chance to tell you in your face how sorry I am for not taking care of you the way you deserve to be taking care of. Sorry baby. Sorry... it's too late.