Reclining backwards, I see your eyes
Crystal blue , clear and beautiful
They capture my soul and heart
And leave me without words
Your touch; soft and gentle
Enough to make me shiver
Enough to make me feel secure again
Trailing my fingertips down your back
I feel you draw a sharp breath
And smile in satisfactory
You look back into my gaze
And I'm lost in your eyes again
Something pulls at my heart
And I close my eyes and turn my head away
You don't know how much I've been through
How much I want to love you
But can't bring myself to trust you fully
I wish that I could change time
And maybe there would be a better me
A better you and me
A better us
You kiss my forehead
And caress my cheek
I open my eyes and hot tears well up
Inside my chest
I need to relieve the pain I've felt
The abandonment I've dealt with
I let the tear fall from my eye
And feel it hit your palm
I stare at you and you let me cry
And then cradle me without a word
I wish things could stay this way
Us here like this
But I told you not to love me....
Even though I knew that you would.