And when I think of happy times, I get sad. Is that a human conundrum?
I think of smiles and laughter.
And pools during summer.
Swimsuits,
Family,
Kisses,
Hugs,
Concerts,
and lights.
And New York City at night.
My mind wanders, I see your face.
The smell of a new apartment.
A new life.
Broken promises, and winter.
Endless fighting,
Shattered glass.
Dizziness, fraught with alcohol
and a stranger's touch.
Needles.
And helplessness,
Loneliness,
Desperation.
Fast paced nights with no destination.
And darkness.
So much darkness...
But
There's
Still
Hope.
I swear, I can make this right again.
Someday.