at times..

at times,



i sit alone



and cry



i know



you aren't



near.





at times,



i feel i want



to die



because you'll



never be



here





at times



i think iv'e lost



my mind



in this



maddening



darkened



haze





at times



i feel



that,



after all,



this life's



simply



a maze.





at times



i breathe



a smoke,



so sweet,



my soul



no longer burns





at times



i feel



my mind



release,



and yet,



my heart



still yearns.





at times



i cry



salty voids



of electrifying



tears





at times



i wonder



if it



stops hurting



it's been



so many years





at times



i know



i'm losing it



please someone



make it stop





at times



i blow



a line



so sweet



i know



i'm at the top





at times



i roar a laugh



so hard



my chest



begins to ache





at times



i just don't



give a fuck



and i'll just get



really baked.





at times



i'm higher



than the sky



or deeper



than the sea.





at times



i'll let you in



my game



so you deicde



for me.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

i'm such a tool.

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