Thoughts taunt me till the early hours of the morning.
I lie awake stirring restlessly until dawn.
Thinking of this or that.
Thinking of you
wondering where you are.
Thinking of ways to get out of this life,
But not wanting to go.
Feeling utterly alone
Yet strangely suffocated
Crying over the spilled milk that has become my life.
I can't seem to stop the circles I walk in.
I am drowning within myself,
No matter who tries to grab me,
I resist.
Arms and legs thrashing
A child throwing a tantrum.
Kicking until you let go
I cry when you are gone.
I reach for you until you’re on the edge
and pull you in with me
and I lose you
and I lie here
broken and alone