It starts at 8am
And I wake up.
I pause upon the crack in my ceiling
The one I've never fixed.
I'm ready for something
The scent of the coming day.
Then I remember I'm alone
That we've gone our separate ways.
And it all falls apart.
My heart is heavy
With the fullness of you.
People pry at me to open up
But there's just no room.
Today I am broken
And I've run out of glue.
So numb in this shell
I pace like a fool.
It's my fault it's over
And I've caused all this pain.
There are so many regrets now
And to what gain?
You are the one I love
The half who makes my whole.
And tonight I'll pick up the telephone
Yet never dial beyond the tone.
My mind doesn't know where to wander
To memories or fact.
Either brings hot tears
To the corners of my eyes.
I remember you holding my silently
As you kissed my scented neck.
And I know that my longing wishes
Are nothing more than that.
I wish that you could be here
To hold me in the night.
To help hold me strong
Against the demons that I fight.
Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow
Will be just as cold a day.
When will you be my half again?
My whole has wasted away.