I swallow the pleasure
but choke on the pain
thrive in the up time
and drown in the down
and the in between time
I struggle to know
if part of you is really mine
you nourish me, and please me
then starve me and leave
with a mouthful of taste
and my love layed to waste
needing and believing
in loves purity
wanting and waiting
for an unknown quantity
and love's such a riddle
or a game I can't win
with so much so forbidden
untill love feels like sin
I'm trying to measure
the loss to the gain
trying to love you
and going insane
I'm still right here
I can't change my spot
and I also can't give
any more than I've got
but when I tell you I love you
I mean I love you alot
I think I finally know
what it means to love you
and I've finally decided
what I have to do
stop trying to measure
the loss to the gain
keep trying to love you
and going slowly insane
and love through lifes pleasures
and live through loves pain