It is with deep regret.

I saw the officious black car drive off from my house as I entered the street.

I will never forget the date.

It was the first day of September,

in fact I have cursed that date ever since.



I will never forget the time either,

I saw it on the big kitchen clock

as I came in and dumped my school bag.

It was fourteen minutes past four.

The sun was still shining brightly outside,

but the heat had gone out of the day.



Then I heard my Mother crying,

crying and wailing with big sobs

like she had the hiccups.

She was sitting right on the edge of the settee.

A hanky covered both her hands as

her head rocked gently back and forth.

One of her heels was out from her shoe,

pointing awkwardly upwards.

There was a letter lying on the floor.

A hand delivered letter.

We had had a visitor.



I cursed the fact my Father wasn"t home,

I did not know what to say or do.

I did a lot of cursing that day,

but most of all I cursed the day  

my Brother ever joined the Army.



Two Weeks Later.



As I walk in to the room

to say my last goodbye.

I wonder if you know,

could see and hear me cry.



If somewhere up above,

you could look down and see.

Know how much your missed,

for once we would agree.



I find it oh so hard

to say a last goodbye,

I curse this heaven and earth

and only wonder why.



Nothing seems to shift

this empty nagging pain.

So I say my last goodbye

until we meet again.



And meet again we must,

for it wasn"t till that day.

That I found out to late

I have so much to say.



I want to tell you this

I love you like no other.

Oh why did God take you

my one and only Brother.






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