A humiliation so pure.
So many tears that are dying to fall.
Held in only by the captivity of one’s own request.
An ashen face and eyes so dark… so fierce.
Is it the cause of anger? Or hurt?
Sacrificing my own pride to show how I truly feel.
People say they care, but no amount of words can keep my wonder away.
My mind works furiously to dismiss these feelings that I find so adamant.
So unloved am I.
No man or woman could ever care.
Neither a friend nor a family member could ever understand.
How many times have I smiled under true happiness?
Too few.
How many times have I shed tears under true sadness?
Too many.
It all seems so complex.
I can’t do it anymore
How could I have ever been so stupid as to think someone could ever care?
How could I let myself fall so far?
So far that I will never be able to find my way back.
Never is a long time… so very long.
To think that a person could even live a life of forever is preposterous.
However, I’m going to try.
Maybe forever will give my wounds time to heal.
Maybe... just maybe.