Tired... exhausted.
Sleep seems so far away.
Every time my eyes close...
images of my past love come into view.
Memories of you keep me awake.
They terrorize my mind with fierce visions
of pain and overwhelming sadness.
Hours are spent staring into the ceiling, looking
for the comfort that I know I'll never find.
When I'm finally taken into a deep slumber,
tossing and turning results.
A pungent blade plunges into my soul.
A long-awaited peace evolves in a reddened puddle
that's quickly drenching the sheets.
Lights that were once bright and clear, begin to fade.
Days of sunshine turn to lightning infested storms.
Laughter turns into sadness.
Smiles turn into tears.
I once loved... and now, I live desperately helpless.
For love's only gift to me... was death.