I feel as if I'm drowning.
Trapped beneath the surface, unable to go anywhere.
My emotions have permeated me, as they have no where else to go.
Your arms aren't around me, and I feel as if maybe I was dreaming.
I can't comprehend why this is so surreal.
Maybe it's because I knew I wasn't good enough to keep you.
I've lost everything already, and losing you should hurt.
In fact, my supposition is that you never left at all.
I know you're still around, I just can't figure out how.
Should I believe in Heaven and should I believe in Hell?
Should I believe in angels or demons?
Do we really all have souls?
It's not the way I want things, to have you not with me.
Dreaming is the way I'll find you.
If not, then I shall attempt to forget.
Forgetting means losing every memory we've shared.
I can't forget your smile, your smell, or your hair.
I'm trapped without you here.
It no longer hurts to have you no right by my side.
I need not forget the way you truly made me feel.
If I lose your memories, then I don't think I could cope.
Your photos bring back everything, the truth and the pain.
I just wish I had one more chance.
If you only knew....