I sit here wondering
Why would god give me this
Such a wonderful gift
The chance to be a mother
I don't deserve it
At least that how he makes me feel
Some times but not all
Should I be here
A live maybe i was sapose to go
Be in the ground
I wonder things such as these
Many times a day over and over
And yet i still have no clue
Part of me wishes to die
Be forgotten i don't deserve anything
And he has made me see this
I should let him have the baby
I don't deserve anything anymore