why can she make it work with him and not me its just so unfair, as i cry writing these words from my heart and not understanding why he treated me like shit and treats her like a guy should treat a girl. its just not fair im jelous and i dont want too be i just want all of this pain to stop, but it never will because he was the first one i slept with and he was someone i wanted to spend the rest of my life with and he never showed me that he loved me other than when he got loaid and now i just feel like im not worth shit. but i will finish this later on