She feel lost alone and unloved 90 percent all of the time, like she isn't good enough to be alive that, she deserves all the pain in the world. Like who could care about such a stupid fucking girl who always fucks up her life, she should leave all she does is bring others down. All she wants is too be home again not where she is now and she will do anything to stay there the summer when she goes back, and she means anything. But for now she will try and enjoy her time here with her family but when she leaves she aint never comin back cause she done with it all. She wishes everything was diffeerent but since it aint this is tthe way its going to be its not that different she is always being let down and hurt, so when she moves back she aint never comin back, yea she cares about her family and will miss them she just can't be here, Her friend said he would move in but now he is being all negative about it and she has to find someone else to move in wit cause this girl knows she could find a full time job and be able to support herself but she cant go to school at the same time so school has got to wait for a while, but she will get it with the support of he friends and as long as her parents always believe in her. she prays they understand why she is leaving and that if she stays her life is in serious danger but deep down she knows they wont understand they never understand her, and why should they she never lets them in but she will go there and do what she has to stay there. the end for now