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Book 1...
1. -Untitled-
Often I stare into the sky and wonder why it's me.
Of all of the things I've lost, I'm blind to the ones I can see.
And I often cry for missing friends.
The puzzle is incomplete.
Don't make me gather the pieces forever.
If you did, I wouldn't get them to meet.
Shattered dreams don't come true.
Can't you see them laying around?
If you picked up the pieces and put them together, they're just not the same as when found.
If I needed to love all the times I had lost it, I wouldn't be right here, with you.
If you left me tomorrow, I'd have to start over.
That's something I don't want to do.
2. -Untitled-
I'm lonely
I need you by my side
I've never walked alone
'Til you left me here that night.
I want to hold you close
And never let you go
Of all the things I say
I only wanted you to know
I'll always stand for you
Whereever you may be
When you call my name
I'll give you what you need.
I'll always stand for you
'Cause you, you stood for me
You stood for me
You stood for me
I'll always stand for you
'Cause you stood for me.
3. -Untitled-
Please don't take my love away
I know I hurt you
I'm sorry
And I want you to stay.
Don't you know I love you more every day?
Please forgive me
I didn't mean it
4. -Untitled-
Shadows, shadows
Forever dancing
Dancing, dancing
Eternal footfalls
Walking stops
Running begins
Escape, run, fly
Become the wind
Infidel
Don't run
Stop, hide within
Become the shadow
5. -Untitled-
This is the world
Not a care
Come and love me
If you dare
Leave me now
I'll feel the sorrow
Not just today
Also tomorrow
And I can feel the pain
My life will never be the same
6. -Untitled-
You give me everything
You show me everything
I find the love inside
With every smile you bring
I
Listened to your stories of pain
Walked you to your house in the rain
With time come trust
Leave if you must
I don't deserve this
Give me one last kiss
Your the only one that I'll ever miss
I still don't deserve this.
7. -Untitled-
Oh, I need it
I've got to have
That one thing that's missing
Come back and see me again
Understand that I love you.
8. -Untitled-
I see
The drop of a handkerchief
An argument
A quarrel
A fight
A battle
A war
Havoc
Destruction
Death
Unending
Forever
The drop of a handkerchief...
I will dream again.
9. -Untitled-
If I could ever find the difference
It just wouldn't be the same
The consequences can be, but won't
The cause is death and the effect is life
It's a backward space
Reverse.
10. -Untitled-
I wish I could be with you forever
I know it seems like a long time
The longer the better
That's the way a feeling impacts
You know how I think
Understand me better than anyone else
Or do you?
Sometimes?
I wish you would tell me
You already have
Why haven't you proved it?
Is there something I need to do?
Eternal is death
Also freedom
I don't want that much.
11. -Untitled-
Is what I ask too much?
I must be kidding myself
It feels that way
I don't want to share
I shouldn't have to
I'm not greedy, just lonely
Everything is I
All I do is take
That's not true
I give everything
Everything I have is yours
It means nothing to me if you're not here
You're not
It means nothing
Nothing at all
What do I have?
Me.
12. -Untitled-
Broken
Pain inside stays inside
Never to emerge
Beneath the surface is a world of sorrow
Waiting to be discovered?
No.
The world can't hold that much hurt.
13. -Untitled-
I'm writing down my thoughts
My feelings are expressed
This is...
So stupid
Why should I write this down?
It seems like I never have anything good to say
Maybe.
14. -Untitled-
Why should I tell you
Why should I think any more
It seems that I'm doing this for no reason.
When all I get in return is...
You got me
Even I don't know that
Why do I do this to myself?
15. -Untitled-
Love
What does it mean?
So much
Nobody seems to know that much
I thought I did.
I guess I was wrong
16. The Tower
Do you think I'm so weak that I will miss you when you're gone?
But I feel the pain as I talk to myself
It is true that you are.
I saw you walking towards me.
But then I woke up realizing that I wouldn't be so lucky as to ever have you as my companion again.
I see people walking hand in hand and understand now better than ever before what the true meaning of love is.
Yesterday I knew I wouldn't be here tomorrow
But today I ask myself, "Why not?"
I know the answer to that question.
I have lost a part of me.
It used to be we, but now it's only you and I.
17. -Untitled-
Take the key to my heart.
Unlock the door that binds these feelings inside me.
18. Everlasting
Nothing lasts forever
But feelings survive in our hearts.
If we treasure the time when we are together
It'll carry us when we are apart.
19. -Untitled-
In times of lies and hatred
Words just don't mean the same.
You could tell me that you love me
But you're playing silly games.
If you wanted truth in romance
Then you'll have to show your love.
That's the way to get to my heart
Find the strength to rise above.
20. -Untitled-
Wondering what you're doing tonight
Wishing that I was there holding you tight
I wanted to give you the world and more
But I'm hiding behind this door.
All of the times I hurt you
I want to take them back
But I know it doesn't matter
It's a quality I lack
All of the times I wanted to tell you
But I just couldn't find the strength
I open my mouth and out comes the silence
I think that you know what I meant
You hurt me, I feel pain
But to me it's all the same
'Cause you left me crying at the door
You cry, I weep
But you say you lose no sleep
And you left me crying at the door
I need to find
The peace of mind
I lost when I lost you
But I guess that I was wrong
The love that you gave was true
21. -Untitled-
All that I want to be
Is in your arms forever
I feel our friendship growing
Along our great endeavors.
I'll follow you faithfully
And lead you at the same
Guiding each other with love
Is the way to win the game.
22. -Untitled-
Tell me how to love you
Because I don't think I know how
Your silence makes me wonder
The need to know you flows from heart.
Won't you open up your eyes
And see me for what I wish to offer
My life points me to a road
Which leads me to eternal love.
23. -Untitled-
When I look into your eyes
I know what's there inside
The beauty and love I found in you
24. -Untitled-
Girl, I loved you once
The pain inside
You threw away the love we tried
I loved you once
I tried again
To see the beauty that hid within
25. -Untitled-
I looked over the rainbow and saw the sun disappear behind the storm
26. -Untitled-
Where are you and where have your journeys carried you?
We used to be really close friends.
We grew apart.
Not really.
But we expanded to have other friends.
Where are you?
I miss you.
Please come back.
27. -Untitled-
All of the time
I look back on the precious moments
When I held your hand
I knew that you'd understand
That I love you
I really need you
Please come back to me
I'm not all that I want to be
And when we're so far apart
I'll always save a place for you in my heart.
28. -Untitled-
I never thought I'd see you again
I thought my life was over
Until I saw your face
Held you oh so close to me.
29. -Untitled-
My heart beats
And I want you to love me forever
You promised that we'd stay together
But I need you to stay with me
30. Empty
Empty
Missing
Found and lost
Buried beneath the surface
Emotions
Filled inside
Blank outside
Erased
Rewritten
Chapter one
Me
Who?
Oh, nobody important
Empty
31. Giving Up
This world
So hateful
Why?
Missing love
To see it as it really is
Unfortunately, the hatred is real
People say
What a beautiful place
Save the planet
The Earth
Why?
Let it go
Let's start over
Failed existence
Don't give up
Try again
It's not worth it
Just not worth it
We will survive
Not the end
Only the beginning
There is more
More
32. One
Lonely
Alone
Without someone to believe in
Absence of love
Missing relationships
Lack of friendship
Me
One
33. About Caring
You can't lie
But you must never tell the truth
Forced to stop
But if you don't continue you have failed
Already found it
But continue to search
Pushed from love into deep hatred
Desired melancholy
For someone who doesn't know how to feel
It takes the emotions of other people to imagine
There is more than one
It doesn't have a consequence
I just don't care anymore.
34. -Untitled-
There are times in my life
I see this world shining on me
Falling around me
There are nights in my dreams
I ask myself, "Why am I here?"
Searching everywhere
For the answers to the questions in my heart
And I know I shouldn't even start to see you
Because of the things that you do.
35. Can I Say
Oh, girl I love you more than words can say
And I want to show you today
If you feel the same
Just call out my name
And I will be there for you
If your love is true
I say these words to you
We can live together
And I'll leave you never
If your love is fair
It's more than I can bear
Give your love to me
I love you, you will see.
Pledge your love as lovers do
And I will pledge mine too
Theres a world of love waiting here
In this time of love rebirth
Your beauty moves the Earth
Love's so great
I'll always hold you near.
36. -Untitled-
I don't know how to love you girl
You came around and changed my world
I look at you and see my dreams
Realizing now just what it means
You don't have to love me girl
But, I'll love you just the same
37. Changes
If I could change the things I've done in my life
I wouldn't change a thing
If I changed events in my past
I might not have the things that mean so much to me
When I think of the love I've found in you
I wouldn't miss it for the world
Lives change with the future
Love can be so hard to understand
I want you by my side forever
Please hold my hand
38. You Can't Love Me Too Much
You can't love me too much
Don't you know that I love you baby
You can't love me too much
Understand that it drives me crazy
When I saw you there
Just standing by yourself
I knew I had to get near
And get to know you well
If you love me
Say you love me
We can last forever
If you need me
Don't deceive me
We will bond our love together
You can't love me too much
Don't you know that I love you baby
You can't love me too much
Understand that it drives me crazy
39. Through The Looking Glass
Through the looking glass
I see a world so bright
And I want to hold and love you day and night
When I'm with you I need no wings for flight
Through the looking glass
Everything will be alright.
Please step through
See what you find
It's a world you create
In the back of your mind.
A fantasy's truth
And a nightmare's lies
Become what you want
When we all close our eyes.
40. -Untitled-
I want to scream
But you would hear me
I want to hide
But you would find me
I want to run
But you would catch me
I can't act
Because you would react
Nothing to do
But nothing
41. -Untitled-
Isn't that enough
The time we spent together
A love to last a lifetime
A love to last forever
42. -Untitled-
Distance never kept us apart
To keep us together
A very strong bond
Holding this dilapidated world together
Friendship and love
The same bond.
43. -Untitled-
What do I have to do
To make you see that I love you
These are the pieces of my heart.
Don't you know that I feel blue?
I don't know what I'd do without you.
Your love is tearing me apart.
44. Home
There is a place of refuge
A final resting place
A beautiful country
A natural land
An understanding street
A road of peace
A living valley
Nirvana
Home
This place is a mysterious place.
I've been there many times and know it well.
It holds secrets.
Something about it
Not quite the same
My memories are incomplete.
45. Strong Willed
Will.
Is that really me?
No. It's not.
I can't help it.
It doesn't feel right.
I'm lost.
Now what do I do?
Trapped inside
Yep.
That's me.
It's lonely in here.
Please open the door.
46. -Untitled-
A love to last a lifetime
I don't want to ever see the end
I could spend forever and a day beside you
I'm true to you.
You're my best friend.
Love should last more than a lifetime
So in truth, the end will not be seen
Truth in love is natural
Force truth is not truth at all
More really a lie.
47. Gray
Somewhere in between
Not quite all the way
Is the color of life
The color of gray.
48. I
What do I have to do
To obtain something that I know can and will last forever?
Love.
Never too much
Because it can't be measured.
Understand.
To see through the outside and feel what's inside.
Knowledge.
Discover true sight to tough the heart.
I love you.
Please love me for what I am.
49. Mind You, I'm Twisted
Twist the mind
What do you find
A spinning thread
Inside your head
Flying right
Into the night
That's where we all want to be
In the dark
You don't see with the eyes
The I's just don't have it
Listen with your mouth
Talk with your ears
Follow your dreams
And kill your fears
Now, where do you want to go?
50. -Untitled-
If I end it today and just go away
What do you think the world has to say?
If I cut off my hair
And eat it real quick
Will I choke or will I just get a giant hairball?
If I tear off my shirt
Will I be considered strong like Mr. Hogan
Or a non-thrifty idiot?
If I tear off your shirt
Will I be considered insane like Mr. Ripper
Or a non-thrifty idiot?
If I throw your radio against the wall
Am I angry
Or do I just not like music?
If I clean up your room for you
Do you want me to clean your bathroom
Or commit myself?
51. Living
We all live to die.
Death is our punishment for living.
In sleep we fulfill our dreams.
Dreams make us wish for more life...
Thus prolonging death.
When we are reborn
It comes, not as a surprise
But as an expectation.
So, again we live.
To die again.
Completing the cycle
So that we can start fresh.
And begin a new life.
52. Foretold
When I dream
I dream of things once passed
Once past the present
In the presence of the future.
53. Father
I talk to my father.
He tells me that things take time.
I love him more than anyone on this Earth.
He has a lot of wisdom.
Doing what he does best
He reassures me that everything will turn out alright.
I realize that life is not just birth and death.
There is a lot to live for.
All of the little things mean so much.
The in-betweens and the halfways he speaks of
Lift my morale to encourage happiness
And the search continues.
I love you.
54. Limits
And I know now that love is not just a feeling or a word.
It can't be described, but in telling you this I am doing just that.
You can't tell someone how much you love them.
You cannot ration love into measurements.
There is so much I don't understand about this incredible gesture.
I strive to let it teach me.
And so it does.
I have learned one second of forever.
My time will run out, but love knows no limit.
55. Blinded by Lies
To see the world with only one eye
Is maybe to see the world with none at all.
Although, it seems like he, the afflicted, is less fortunate
I shall never see what he sees.
So I am unfortunate to have not discovered
How to see with my thoughts
And only my vision.
I know only what I see and forget
That which is not clear.
56. Hopeful
He tried his hardest to make it
But sometimes that isn't enough.
So life has passed him by.
But not so speedily that he can't still see the beauties that living grants.
And he is a poor man among beggars.
Yet ever rich in values.
Having something that so many of us lack.
Hopes and dreams.
57. -Untitled-
I hear your voice.
Ever so quietly echoing.
Far out of reach
So much as a memory.
As a prophecy.
58. Life, Trees and Seasons
Life is a tree.
In the Spring
A seed deep within
Awaiting the first glimpse
Of the outside world.
On to Summer.
The growth is swift
Taking only years
In a lapse of forever.
Begins the Fall
In turn the rise
This is the learning
Wisdom collects
In many fiery rings.
At the end
The Winter's cold
Reaches out of the dark
Drawing near the distant past
Ending all further progress.
In the passing seasons
The tree has left many seeds
To begin and continue life.
59. -Untitled-
Please don't go away from my side
I'd never leave you
When you left me I cried
Oh, I was so blue
When the world all around you
Seems to crumble into the sea
And you think you've lost everything
Well, remember you'll always have me.
60. Distance
Wrong is wrong
Right is not
Values are sold at higher prices
Than what they are worth.
Society is solo
Death is friendship
Embraced with open arms
Is a race of feelings.
Express the opposite
Of what lies deep within
A mirror is needed
To reflect the truth.
Like a ray of hope
From the stars that hover above us
They are not so different
They are as far from us
As we are from them.
61. Connections
When you break off a piece of your heart
And let the wind carry it into unrestricted skies
It's like relinquishing you freedom.
Selling yourself to be a slave
To the rest of the world.
Sometime this happens unwillingly
Perhaps unknowingly
Sometimes willingly
Also sorrowfully
In essence
We will always long for that piece
That peace
Without it
The feelings of the mortal soul
Are a puzzle awaiting fulfillment.
62. In the Rain
I'm walking, walking
Walking in the rain
Without you love
To guide me
And you beside me.
I need you to be with me
And nobody else
Can heal my pain
Where can you be?
I've searched everywhere
In stormy rain.
63. Books
When you open a book,
Read it's depths,
Discover it's secrets,
You hope that
What is found is
Worthy of the
Image imposed on the
Surface.
64. Air Conditioning
What is a happiness?
A vent serves a purpose
Like releasing feelings of
Aggression when it pleases us.
Enthusiastically partaking in
Taboo affairs
Since they neglect us
Previously.
65. Timeless
Where is the time?
It seems endless, yet it's
Never to be found.
If we coordinate,
Only then can we
Overcome the chaotic
World we have come to
Love
It seems worthless, yet
Time is money and
We must never waste it.
If we spend it thriftfully,
Only then can we save
ourselves from the greedy
Misers.
If you didn't learn or work
Towards freedom,
The time you spend now,
Could be time spent together.
66. Salty Water
A teardrop never
Tasted so sweet
As a rosepetal
From the stem
That spawned it
Falls to creation.
67. Waterwalker
Walk this path.
The waterwalker rises
Above the waves of pain
And falls below the skies of ecstasy.
If you pick these flowers,
Hang them from the stars for
All of the world to see.
If you eat these apples,
Plant the sees so that
Others may forget hunger also.
Close your eyes and fall into the wind.
Hold out your hand for the
Secrets I will reveal to you.
Celestial bodies see and
Know that even those who
Try their hardest, don't always
Succeed.
67x. For "Claudi"
Auf Deutsch?
Nein.
Es ist nicht vernuftig
Lassen uns nicht fuhren uns falsch.
Ich liebe dich sehr. -1994
68. -Untitled-
Now the world hears this
A moment of eternal bliss
From a girl whom I will always miss
I was able to steal one lonely kiss.
69. So Close
So close, so close
Yet ever so far out of reach
We are so close
Yet ever so far apart
The dreams we hold
Are going to last forever
For one day we'll be together
So, so close
70. Smiling
I don't smile when I think of you
The way I did when I used to
The wall between love and hate
Waivers in the emotions of those
Certain someones around me.
What is love?
What is true hatred?
Questions in past time asked by me
Often answers are not found and
Never are they understood.
When I thought love had
Discovered something inside of me,
It had but, not the same thing
Shadows your footsteps.
The trail I blaze
Doesn't even leave footprints in the ice
Surrounding the hearts of those
Reaching to find that which I have.
Love works on an individual level.
71. The Wind
Try not to hold onto the wind
As the wind blows around you,
So shall it through your fingers.
Life is as a dream
With much to learn.
72. Being There
Chance the hidden door
Open the heart
Enchant the mind so that
All you see are the
Wonders that the magical
Land that eludes the
Masses of people that lack the
Desire and sincerety that allows
So many of us to travel
The unseen waterways and
Walk the forbidden paths that
Lead to the secret flower that
Blooms in the yellowish reflection
Of the sun above us in the
Daytime, although it is only
A cold lifeless rock hanging
Middrift in the endless
Meadows that few of us
Grace.
73. Cloudy
Tonight, the clouds hang
In the sky and block the moon.
On the opposite side, the
Sun shines brightly.
Perhaps not on the earth
But definitely in the
Center of the satellites.
Soon the one I love awakens.
She lays clain to thoughts of me
As I to her
Thoughts of reunion are common
In my mind
Hopes of a love not forgotten
Enchant my dreams.
And I wait for time.
For me, it does not the same.
To pass, I will sleep.
74. Giggling
The somewhat inebriated fool
Giggles for the slightest peace.
She reveals through confused words,
Secrets long held, to the jester,
That would stir humor.
Her whims and actions become one
As not a care in the world
Could hold the hands that douse the
Seemingly eternal parchness of the
Adam's apple.
75. Back to Reality
Changing back and forth
And forth and back
Never to decide
World view
Unable to show another
What is hidden
Under the facade
The prism bends the light
Warping the true feelings
So that rejection is imminent
If only it were understood
Without words
Seeing with the eyes
Into another's inner chambers
Turning the key to unlock
The caged soul's schackles
Lending the hand to bring it
Back to the surface
76. Shelter
You sheltered me
From the cold
When the world
Closed their doors.
You gave me food
And surely I would not starve.
You talked when I listened
And listened when I thought aloud.
Share with the one who has none
Accept when it's given in return.
This is what a friend really is.
77. A Memory
Communication.
A street.
A girl watches it
Trafficks one direction only.
Faces in passing cars
Tell stories of where
They've been and not where
They're going.
One way becomes anti-directional
As the movement slows, halts,
And then writes itself as another
Page in "The lost memories".
78. Heroes
Heroes come and go.
As mine will stay.
Hold to yours like a grasp to life.
Loosen your grip not.
For one wave from the
Ocean of emotion carries off
Items not properly secured.
I have seen this.
My hero nearly lost a dream.
He nurtured this one.
The wave did overcome this vision.
Yet, my hero redoubled his efforts.
Reaching into the wake, he did find
His dream.
By the hand, he did lift it.
Still the dream is.
79. -Untitled-
Because I died inside
I must live outside.
To show the rest of the
World that nothing is wrong.
Only when I admit in your eyes
Can I be reborn in my own.
80. Never Hold Back
I waited too long and
Now you're gone
If only I had another chance
They said not to wait
And here it's too late
You've gone to find yourself another man
I will never hold back
The feelings inside me
Never hold back
'Cause these walls can't confine me
I want you back
It's the one thing I lack
I will never hold back
My love, for you, again.
81. -Untitled-
Obviously we forget
That which we don't remember
To ever know
That which we no longer do
Is like rolling up life
In a rug
Then inserting seam rippers
Into various parts thereof
And randomly letting parts of
The past into the present
Therefore, only knowing what is
Released
And in conclusion, I don't
Feel that I should remind you
Of any more memories.
82. Handle With Care
So fragile.
If I wanted to hold you
I would keep wanting.
So unsure
If I wanted to tell you
I don't want to scare you
Don't leave.
The greatest accomplishment
To always tell you how I feel
It may not seem like much to others
I know you know how it is
Greater that greatest?
To always know how you feel.
83. Happiness
To touch that hand
With my own
If I could bring joy to the whole world
Then I would
Since I cannot
And I can bring happiness to your world
That is infinitely more than enough
To bring the same to mine.
84. End?
If by chance
I were to gaze into your eyes
I might see a reflection of
An intangible treasure
That can only be felt
And be recognized as the same
Force that motivates my
Need to share.
It may actually end my search
For true love.
85. Cry
If I cry for you
More than a lifetime of
Tears fall from these eyes.
If I were ever to lose you
More than a world of broken hearts
Stop beating at once
If ever you were mine
More than any other love
Would mine for you be.
86. Underneath
You have melted a wall of ice
Black ice
I could not see the sun
Nor could it prevent the ice from growing
Yet, you sparked a dream
When I was bursting with love
And the need to share it
You helped me show that there was
More inside
Now, you must let me help you.
87. The List
The things that he would do for her
Endless it seems
The list
Beginning with love
Somewhere close behind
Trust
Almost a continuation of love
Where is love without trust?
Extended to sacrifice
Change
Conform to a new way
Would she do this for him?
If she loves him
Effortlessly
88. Away
When I thought I had
Discovered something special,
I tried too hard.
One day I will find nothing
And do nothing.
I will miss my chance.
And have nothing.
I will become nothing.
And drift away.
89. Life
As my tears fall
They water the root
From which I grow.
The pain helps me.
Experience is the blooming flower.
It will eternally bloom
As I will always cry
I will name it
Life.
90. The Waltz
A slow dance
Crosses the floor
As hand in hand
Two move as one
The moments pass slowly
Then all too soon
The music stops
Although they no longer touch
There remains a bond.
91. Now
What's not to love?
No memories exist where I
Did not love
The most important love
Is always the one
I feel now
I never wished love to leave
Yet, it did
At the time of it's greatest effect
On my Emotions
Here, it's back
And I accept it
Openly.
92. Darkness
In the dark
Something there
Nothing to see
Still, look on
Not a sound
Intently listening
Reach out
You're not alone.
93. Above the Pain
The one thing I needed
Was taken from me
I watched her go
Said nothing
I don't know why I couldn't see.
The tears in my eyes are flowing strongly
My hands are cold to the touch
I gave you my love, but you left me lonely
Just wanting to show you so much.
I will rise above the pain
It will be just a memory
Love will come again
I know that's the way it will be.
94. -Untitled-
The love expressed to the other
Was not returned verbally to the one.
The other kept feelings inside
One tried to tell.
In time one will
While the other looks.
95. Beginnings
Sometimes I look into the sky
And wonder why I wonder why
The clouds follow the wind
And where it all begins.
96. Grandfather
He wants to know.
He wonders what's wrong.
Where is my father?
Where is my sister?
Her baby is no longer with her.
He is sick, yet he writes with strength
While others who are stronger
No longer respond.
97. I Want Another Chance
I want another chance with you
After all we've done and we've been through
I want another chance
I want to hold your hand
And I want another chance, alone, with you
98. I Will Cry
I only ever wanted to hold you
You never even gave me a kiss goodbye
I'll be standing in this place forever
And the tears will fall from my eyes
And I'll cry
I will cry
I will cry like the rain from above
I will cry for the loss of my love
I will cry
I will cry until I hold you again
99. She's All I Need
Once in my dreams I saw her
Since then, I haven't seen her again
I know in my heart if I keep of searching
I'll find her and my journey will end.
The love her eyes gave was to die for
And her hair was of sparkling gold
If I met her today, I would love her forever
True love is hard to find, so it's been told
I will find her
I'll be right there when she needs me.
I'd give her anything
There's nothing more precious than her, that I can see.
'Cause she makes me happy
She's all I need.
100. Time Line
The sky whispers secrets of
Past, present and future
Only mine can be seen by me.
In a past, I don't see you
But I see pain and confusion
This is my past.
In a present, I see you
Also, I see healing and guidance
This is my present.
In a future, I see us
I see happiness and laughter
I know of love and companionship
I've discovered wonders that touch the heart
This is our future.
101. As Long As You Love Me
I'll be there for you
As long as you love me.
All my dreams come true
As long as you love me.
But even when you don't
I'll give my love to you.
And be with you, I won't
Nevertheless, I'll still love you.
I want you to be my girl
My shining moment
Always be by my side.
When the river flows
Go with the current
You're in for a surprise.
I'll be there for you
As long as you love me.
All my dreams come true
As long as you love me.
102. Age
Ravaged by time
Yet an inspiration
Freed once
Still come back
Let loose again
The bond holds yet
I don't think you're leaving again.
103. Devotion
When I had devoted
You devoted to someone else
I treasured you
You treasured another
I wanted you
You wanted him
I miss you
Do you miss that other?
104. If I...
If I waited
I never waited too long
Never too late
Can't be too soon
I watched and learned
Discovered a new way
Found a broken heart
Within a soul
To give my heart
Not too much
Isn't too little
I will take the broken one.
The broken is now mine
I will heal
As will the heart
I will add my feelings
This heart is a part of me
I will keep it.
105. All Along
You searched
Found one and tried it out
It broke
And it broke you.
Now I search
Found the pieces
Picked them up
Put them together again
You're here again
As am I
Now you found me.
As I you
You no longer search
As we have found each other
If only you knew before
I've been here all along.
106. Forever More
I'd like to be one
To drift away
Not into nothingness
But to everything
I'd like to be loved
To give my feelings
Not to the wind
But a listening ear
I'd like to have you
To be with me
Not just for a time
But forever more
Then again, I'd like to be one
To be with you
Just like the wind
Forever more.
107. The Door
There was a wall
In the middle of the wall
A door
The door says "PULL"
And I pushed, and I pushed
And the door didn't open
And I pushed, and I pushed
And the door didn't budge
And I knocked, and I knocked
And nobody answered
And I knocked, and I knocked
All I heard was an echo
And I cried, and I wept
For the door would not open
And I wept, and I cried
Just a little bit more
And I left for the day
And I'll come back tomorrow
All my grievances gove
And I'm rid of my sorrow
Next time I will pull, no I'm not going to push
And the door will then open, and then I will see.
108. Wonder
It really makes me wonder
The reality of truth
The deception of the dream
Why do I want something now?
Knowing that with time comes
Loss of such a treasure.
Why keep this for now?
Only to know that
Later it is gone.
Temporary is not forever
Eternal is not momentary.
109. -Untitled-
Empty it seems
Yet full of dreams
For all that they lack
I'm sending them back
Empty it seems
Yet not even a start
Good luck with your dreams
Just follow your heart
I shattered my dreams
And I left them behind
The one thought on my mind
Oh so empty it seems
110. -Untitled-
If You Me I Wish
Forever Never Explain Confuse
Release Capture Begin Leave
Love Goodbye Ever Chance
Forget Remember
(FLIPPED)
111. -Untitled-
About what do you write?
Who do you see?
Am I in your dreams?
As you frequent mine.
I am a thinker
Of you I do this
I am a lover
Of you I do this
As my thoughts roam the skies
I paint a blue cloud
A favorite it seems
As you sit there upon
You wander the reflection
And bring rain to the lives
As a balance
112. Suffer
All of the time
I would suffer
Not knowing if this road
Were to lead me to bliss
Or eternal suffering.
That which I can see
Is but a breath out of my reach.
So when I stop reaching
I stop forever
And only when I stop
Does it approach
When is it too late?
And should I stop now?
113. Expectations
We set our expectations
To that which we want
Not to that which is
The essence of survival
Not even met halfway
I must then soar to
The highest peak
To achieve that which comes
To the simplest of lives.
114. Fading
Will you fade?
To become just a memory
Like I have become to so
Many others.
Will I remember?
Like an echo my heart pulses
Once a memory
Then just an idea
Until we meet again.
115. Sorrow
The lighter side of sorrow
Is your opposite
The darker side of love?
Somewhere in the middle
As true love is not
Pure happiness
But a preparation for pain
So in melancholy
Exists satisfaction of
Present knowledge
Current wisdom includes
The touch of destiturion.
I know there's nothing lower than this
So I can be truly happy.
116. Listen To Me
I will wait
Listen to me
I will tell
Listen to me
There are secrets
Listen to me
Feelings hide on the outside
Strange it sounds
They hide from the fears inside
Fear itself
And my emotions and fears
Are one and at the same time
So different
Afraid of the misunderstood
Comprehension does not repel fear
Would you not be frightened
If you only knew?
It says "no"
117. -Untitled-
Oh, the night
When I feel the grass
Under my feet
And the rain
Upon my head
I still see the moon
For the clouds
And now a rainbow
Of translucence
And this is most natural
As no thread
Will hold me
And I see her
I will dream
She holds me.
118. Inventor
I am the inventor
I created the evil that men do
I am the murderer
For I have killed a love so true
I am a thief
For I stole happiness from myself and you
I am the sailor
And I will go down with my ship
I am the inventor
For I myself am wrong
119. -Untitled-
It seems that I can't do anything right
I try to love
But gain hatred in return
Oh, a mistake
I attempt to hold to you
But hold too tightly
And you slip from my grasp
This error
A compilation
I nearly succeeded
But, now I must die.
120. Sinner
I have sinned
Now I must pay
The ultimate price
Relinquish this soul to hell
Mine is unworthy of even an attempt
Eternal
I must suffer endless torment
Never again can I touch
Never again can I kiss
These things are intangible
As I have no body
I am dead.
121. Chains and Shackles
The changes I experience
Confuse me
I cannot fathom the pain I
Have caused us
I cannot imagine the hurt I
Have inflicted upon you
I only know my pain.
There now exists
A shackle upon my soul
Holding my down
Binding me to this moment.
Also a locked door
To my heart
Holding me in
Binding me to
Never again tell.
122. Challenge
The touch will burn me
Like cleansing with fire.
I am afraid
It is not a cleansing
But a challenge.
Difficulty is imminent.
For the wrong
I have done
Every touch will burn
Not only my skin
But also my heart
My soul
Memories
Dreams.
123. Blame
How can you hurt the one you love?
It seems something we would never do.
So easy to maintain
Yet I have failed so horribly
Failure is commonly seen
Through my eyes
The eyes of the world see this
And punish me for it.
And I am blamed.
124. Soul
The first level
This will rip the scalp from you skull
The second level
This will tear your eyes from your sockets
The third level
This will strip the skin from your body
The fourth level
This will filet the carcasse
The fifth level
This will remove gender
The sixth level
This will remove all thought
The seventh level
This will steal feelings
The eighth level
This will drain the blood from your veins
The ninth level
This will extract your heart
I was already dead
Stripped of my soul
125. By Decision
Like forgiveness
Is Life
Like suffering
Is life
Wrong, deceit, cowardice
Guilt
Plagues my thoughts
There are few ways out.
Death being the most prominent
I am again bothered
By decision
My life is a lie
Sin
I will be damned to Hell
Forever
126. Repeated Mistake
I love you
I don't ever want you to leave
You mean so much to me
There's nothing I would rather have
I want to hold you
But it won't be easy
To touch you
I wish everything was
The way it was before
I can never let myself
Make such a mistake again.
I am in pain
Physical and mental
I need you to tell me
It's alright
I need to tell you that
I love you
I've never felt pain like this before.
127. Together
There is only one way
No
Not that
Only one way to get out of this
Not death
We must do this together
That
Is the only way
I promise
It won't be easy
We will survive
Love is the leading power.
128.
Perhaps
I must leave
To make room for another.
I will find my way
I don't know how
I don't know where
I don't want to leave behind
Something I treasure so much.
I feel so dead.
129. -Untitled-
Sometimes
Pain speaks louder than love
Occasionally
Hatred overpowers pleasure
We must see these
As building blocks
And remember
The hurt they cause
Never let these things
Happen again
130. Once Again
When we're together
It seems the world could melt away
There's nothing better
In my heart there is no other way
Once again
I hold you in my arms
Astounded by your charms
I'll never let you go
Once again
I want to be with you
There's nothing else to do
I tell you that it's so
Once again
The time, it flies
It never seems like it's enough
But, in your eyes
I've seen what's there and know it's love
The moments we share
They are so special in my heart
And they're so strong
They'll carry us when we're apart
It's destiny
This is how it is meant to happen
Can't you see
I hold you 'cause my arms are open
Once again
I hold you in my arms
Astounded by your charms
I'll never let you go
Once again
I want to be with you
There's nothing else to do
I tell you that it's so
Once again
131. The Way It Is
This is the way it is.
The way it was
Is the way it will be
What you want
Is what you will have
What you saw
Is what you will see
What you heard is
What you will hear
I feel what
I've always felt
What I will always feel
What I held
I will always hold
And I hold these things
Dear in my heart.
132. The Plan
This is my plan
Should it work
I will have you
Should it not
I will have you
I loved you
I do love you
I will always love you
Regardless.
134. Flowers
Negella damascena
What dost thou counter?
Hyoscyamus niger
And when a love lies?
Amaranthus caudatus
Which leads to
An overcasting
Atropa belladonna
135. Falling Behind
Once again I fall behind
Fed only by fears
This feeling is of
Repeated loss
When truths
Get in the way of
Feelings
We don't understand
So much as
We long to know
Everything
When we know all
That there is
Interest is lost
To find more secrets.
136. -Untitled-
I don't want to hurt
The pains I feel
Are in my heart
They stab my mind
I'm tired of this
Alone I am
And alone I shall be.
137. -Untitled-
I'm not perfect
I'm not flawless
Neither am I without error
That is understated
What is the opposite of perfection?
I am just that contradiction
Conform to the flaw
See yourself for what you are.
138. -Untitled-
Let me back in
I don't want to be here
No.
Not here.
There is nothing here
Nobody here
Nowhere.
That is where
But I can't be anywhere
If I am nowhere.
Not forward.
Nor backward.
There's no time
I don't have time for this.
139. Goals
Thus begins my journey
It starts here
Press forward
And leave behind
There is a goal in the distance
I will build my castle
There will be growth
I will find myself
Seek the spirit within me.
140. -Untitled-
Without a love is
Restless
Love calms
Now I can rest
Without a tear
141. -Untitled-
The lover loves
The hatred
Hates
The love
Empowers words for
Expressing love
Allows others to
Grow
Reach for the stars
Shine in the night.
142. -Untitled-
And this is the best
Thing for me
I will leave behind
All that I own
And start a new life
I do not own everything
My friends
My family
My hopes, dreams and fears
These things belong to the world.
I will keep the dearest
One in my life
And more
For I cannot and will not
Take anything with me.
143. -Untitled-
With the emmersion
Comes the cleansing
And eyes watch me
People smile
It touches my heart
And ears hear me.
The realized
Also blessed
And hands touch me.
I am acceptance.
144. -Untitled-
We have parted
Company
Still we call
On one another
Can you ever
Forgive me
And will it ever
Be the same.
145. It's Weird
It's weird
To break the monotany
Of it all
When something
Doesn't go just the
Way you planned it
You feel trapped
Like something's wrong.
Maybe it's nothing
But, I think
They enjoy
Playing with minds
They know
It's weird.
146. -Untitled-
Being there
Believing the difference
Knowing all love
Forgetting all fear
Things can change
With so little.
147. -Untitled-
Anticipation of
Pain is fear
Long term pain
Unbearable
Must discover
A way out
And back in.
148. -Untitled-
Our hearts know no limits
As our minds
We go places
Do things
That we otherwise
Are encountered
With a physical barrier
That is how
We can be together.
149. No More
For that which
I have done
Nothing good
I am dead
Lost
Buried and gone
I have sealed
Another gap
In my existence
For when there
Are no more
I shall leave
This place.
150. Funeral
A casket
Closed
A hole
Filled
A ceremony
Ended
A gathering
Dispersed
A presence
Looms.
151. Tested
This is it
A real test
Time ticks away
Soon my immediate resources
Come to a conclusion
To find a new method
I must journey to
Unvisited plateaus.
152. -Untitled-
Ha!
No longer a best friend
Not even a friend
Hardly an acquantance
Sad
So sad.
153. -Untitled-
Enter this
Surrounded by hatred
And false love.
Imagine that I
Could Iever
Will I ever
Find the love that I seek?
Do not enter here
Do not follow me
Beat you own path
And follow it
Lead others if
That is what you wish.
154. -Untitled-
You want to desert me
I wouldn't want you to
But, you treat me so harshly
It becomes a mutual desire.
I'm looking
He and she
Is a dream
Will you and I ever be
We?
We shall both see.
155. -Untitled-
I think of you
And can't stop
I really feel a link
Wandering hearts
So far apart
Yet always together
I love you
Yet, I hardly see you
Someday
Begins forever
I know that day
That we will be
Together.
156. -Untitled-
We are, it seems
Preparing for a journey
I'll travel
Towards you
You'll move in my direction
Somewhere
A circular flow will hit
Us
And we will be caught
In the circle of life
Endlessly chasing.
157. Lupine
As I speed along
Along the wood line
A wolf parallels
My path
Haunting my every thought
And shadowing my every move.
158. Broken Glass
I've had my heart broken
I know what it feels like
Like glass
So is my dream shattered
Instead of rebuilding
Let us find a new one
Yet the time to rebuild
Once finished
Creates a home
A heart
That cannot
Will not
Be broken
Tattered
Torn again.
159. -Untitled-
There she stood
Her whispering form
Called me
I answered
Through the wall
I appeared
As translucence
Ghosts
160. -Untitled-
How could I miss you
With aim so true
My goal is you love
For me.
And I for you.
Magical is the moment
That I again hold your hand.
Crying.
161. -Untitled-
Now this fear
Renewed in spirit
Fears are changing
From just thoughts
To reality
Waking up
The dream is gone
And I am here
Reentry is unlikely
162. -Untitled-
What it is.
Be that I am
This way
This is the wrong direction?
I've travelled this road so long.
You want me to turn back now?
Just a little further.
I'm almost sure.
163. -Untitled-
Goodbye
I'm not leaving you
But you waivered
And drifted from me.
164. -Untitled-
Only I have seen my past
Watching people walk in and out
Climbing up and falling back down
Going so far
To be destroyed
And have to start over again
165. All In All
My mother and my father
They gave their very best
I thought that I had nothing
And look at all the rest.
They cling to worldly objects
Of silver and the like
All I have are the memories
They seem to make it right.
They built me up from nothing
Still standing here today
I muster up the courage
To think of what to say.
When people share their insults
And shatter all of my pride
I kindly keep my mouth shut
And take it all in stride.
166. -Untitled-
Countless times I tried
Countless times I failed
When I wanted you to love me
I only wanted to be held
Now I'm all alone
And just can't find my way
The one thing that I longed for
I'm just waiting for the day
When we're back together
And you'll stay forever.
167. -Untitled-
Pray, I don't dream
For all that I see
Is just a desire
So, nothing is real
When I close my eyes
Behold, you may have your thoughts
At night
During light
It's your fight.
168. -Untitled-
When I think about the time
We were together
I want to hold you forever
And I'll never
Let you go.
169. -Untitled-
I'll capture a heart
And then set it free
As I wait for time
It will come back to me.
170. Care
I care
For my father
I care
For me
I care
For all that I love.
I care
For war
For without
Be there no peace?
I care
About hate
For without
Be there no love?
I care
About not caring
For without
Be there no care?
Be there no me.
171. Forever
Seeing with eyes
Without any thought
Doing some things
We really should not
172. Stand 'til the End
Stand 'til the end
With strongest of will
From bottom of valley
To top of the hill.
Relinquish the throne
For what it shall mean
The times that have passed
And all that they've been
Feel with you heart
What you can't with the hand
And your dreams will come true
As you stand 'til the end.
Find the answers
To questions in heart
For reaching the end
When so hard to start
Will be to the end
As followed the dream
And deep down inside
You know what I mean
173. Falling
Watching intently
Deep down in my heart
As I wait for the moment
Preceding a spark
And a column of flame
Will come down from the sky
I will burst forth with love
As you shine in my eyes
We'll dance on the water
Our hearts light as air
As we look at each other
And know something's there
It's us 'til the end
And that does mean forever
The longest of time
But as least we're together.
174. Scritch, Scratch
I'm so lonely
I'm going to cry
It's quiet
For the scratching
Of a Pencil
I want someone to hold me
I long for the fourth month
For a shower of love
My mind wanders
As I muster a smile.
175. April
For two years
I wait
Now comes the fourth month
I watched you
For time
Now join me
For all eternity
Together with
Each other.
176. -Untitled-
If we guess when we could know
Why ask?
If we can see
Why tell?
If we can hold
Why show?
Often we let
Unnecessary actions
Get between us
And our goals.
177. Secrets
As the fool can see
What I treasure is you
Let me open my mind
To those mystical few.
As I pour out my secrets
All of your pockets be filled
You can share them with strangers
And those you have willed.
I've enchanted my heart
With a powerful feeling
When I think of you daily
It then sends my heart reeling.
So I'm trying to find you
In crowds on the street
But you can't find true love
In all of the people that you meet.
178. -Untitled-
I am an artist of words
And a thief of hearts
Greater than a king
179. Waiting
How long must I wait
To find the one I love
To hold her in my arms
To hold no one above
To shelter her from harm
Why must I wait
To be with her for time
And all eternity
To call her only mine
And she will so love me
But, I will wait
'Til that moment comes along
I'll be holding strong
And I will be waiting
Singing this song.
180. Disillusioned
Crushed
By the most powerful force in this world
Love
Building me up
Striking me down
The lowest form
Showing me wonders
Only to reach to touch
And dissolve this illusion.
181. God
You could punish me
All that you want to
It's all the same
I seem to give up
You seem to want nothing
It's all the same
My faith is waning
For to be a member
Of your club
Doesn't seem to hold
Much for me
I'm leaving
You still have your gathering.
182. -Untitled-
Hello
I missed you today
There's not much time to say
That I'll follow you the way
You always guided with your smile
Sometimes it took a while
To hold your hand so tight
The way you kiss goodnight
It always made things right.
183. -Untitled-
Part of a million
Feeling like one
Why do I feel this?
Parting with one
Feel like a million
184. -Untitled-
The child leaves
A burning leaf
A swollen ego
He thinks it's swell
185. -Untitled-
It's down to us
And I'm so down
You're up there
I don't know where
To find the answers
I need to survive
This
186. More Than Nothing
Nothing is more
More is nothing
And nothing is more than
More than nothing
187. -Untitled-
Behold
This shining
When I saw
That lady
Behind her guard
I whispered not
She knew not
That I would
Write poetry
About her.
188. So It Would Seem
And I never saw
I could hear
Never knew
So would guess
I'll ask the questions
About you
Others no
Some were yes
Creative flows
In ocean tides
Coming in
And going out
On my mind
Rides the answer
I know not
So would doubt.
Imagine us
The perfect pair
A glass reflects
The other side
I vowed my love
You say the same
But I think one
Of us has lied
Of all the things
We say and do
I miss the ones
That spark the dreams
If found us there
And left us here
Continues love
At least it seems.
189. Eternal
There is no time
I've waited for so long
This moment
Eternal
190. Changes
She
He
Is happy
Is sad
Wonders
Discovers
Remains
Unchanged
The same
Changes
191. Implode
Hanging from a thread
Bolted to the ground
Questions in my mind
Spinning round and round.
Would I? Should I?
Could I now?
Retreat inside my shell.
My home is broken
Future crushed
It's probably just as well.
192. -Untitled-
Textures
That I feel
Sounds that I hear
Visions
I can see
Flavors
All to taste.
Yet none
Know love
Nor I
Am above
I still wait.
193. -Untitled-
So I close my eyes to the world
Dream of love. Remember pain. Foresee tests.
The book.
Once closed.
Again opened.
Read me. Know me. Show me.
Once again closed.
