here we go again
get up again
tighten up my clothes
every time i see these hangers
i want to hang myself with them
here we go
shoes dress and match
i'm in a every day curse
reliving the same day over and over
going to hell just to satisfy others
i want to hang myself from the roof
watch them stop and stare or would they?
girls with wrist cuts
guys with rope burns around their necks
look myself in the mirror rehearse these prayers
look at me i'm pathetic i'm worthless
doesn't matter
i don't feel the love inside
dead inside
eating cancer drinking bone marrow disease
begging for a release
looking for an exit
so many times
thinking
dreaming
fantasising
aim
click
boom
so many met their doom
stop it!
no!
it's wrong but it feels so right
filthy thought
nasty mind
murdering inspiration
i love columbine attitudes
bastards! their ideas were mine
they did it!
i can do it!
look for the guts to do it!
death and a hearse
unlike them i'll do it!
i want to kill myself after i finish them
i know i'll want to do it again