Yet another gap from before, this time its three months ... I've sorta given up on finding some one for myself, even my dreams stopped what they were. I'm in a cast because of a recent, and brief, incounter which left me with a broken femer and large toe on my left leg and foot. Oh how I wish I could sleep without dreams, that eternal sleep and know nothing but peace from it.
Every night I go to rest, my mind filled my soul empty.
Every morning I wake up, in more pain and slightly weaker.
Slowly I know it will draw in, the day when I won't be able to get up.
My joints weaken with every step, my knee cap floats like a cork.
I dare not say just how bad it is, and when asked I laugh it off and deney it.
It's all just an enless waltz a dream I can not wake up from.
I wish I could not dream, just sleep and wake with nothing between.
I wonder how long it will be before I end up in a home locked in bed.
How many more years are there ... how many years did I lose ...
When will it all end. When can I dream again...