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Wow, It's been almost a year sence I first wrote a Diary entree, and nearly nine months sence I updated this part of things ... So much has happened, so much to think about ... many miles before I sleep sort of things...



I love my fiance with every part of my being, each day I grow more and more in love with her and each day brings us closer. We talk of kids, and visiting, we talk of many things that make me blush, and I will not repeat here for some things are to be kept between lovers and no one else.



The quest for a job is tediouse and slow but I have to get one, for myself, for my love, I must make myself better to please the one I love so that we may have the life, and things, that ones such as them desire.



I won't beat around the bush, talk of a child scares me. It is an unknown that I have wanted and wished for for ages, but now that I may have the chance I do not know any more, so much responcability, so much to do and so much to care for, it's a large thing having a baby, and expencive ... I'm barely able to take care of myself day to day without getting hurt in some way, how am I supposed to care for a child. I know I have a lot of growing up to do, I'm a 23 year old second grader in a lot of ways but I have to become an adult, I can't go around willinilli all the time ... I'm going to be a parent .... wow ... that will be something won't it ...



Look at me, putting the cart before the horse, we haven't even met yet and I'm talking about kids, I can be so silly at times. I guess I better get to bed, it's 0130 hours ... Wow ... me ... a parent ... am I up for it?