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Permanent Dissention
I just want to relax
I just want for a while to be able to lie down
I just want to sleep
Close my eyes
Lay down my head
Rest eternal absent from sound
Absent from light
I just want this to end
The days are all the same
No change in sight
No change to recommend
Nothing changes
Day in and day out I hang my head
Walking slowly
In no particular direction
Not hearing what they all had said
I guess they were mainly “Hellos”
Who cares???
Who knows???
I know I don’t
I guess I’ll just keep on walking
Thinking
Waiting
For the best I hope…
I feel vacant
I feel miles away
I stare into space
I barely feel sane
Even when I jump into action
My body moves and acts without any of my help
Going through the steps
Like the outsider watching what others get dealt
Even when the soothing words
Escape my mouth to subdue the anxiety
It’s all part of the act I play
To merely lower blood pressure
That much I can see
The play is full of purpose
Full of misguided intent
But when the curtain closes
The final act has passed
Only my heart was fully meant
Understand
My heart and mind
Stay in two separate rooms
Disagreeing
Never in line
Only connected by the light of the moon
Forever
This torn apart dream holds them together
The dream of sanity
The dream that I once called me
