I just don't understand how a depressed person could at first want to get better and eventually does start to feel better but then wants to be depressed again. Or how a person wants to be in a psychiatric hospital again, for the third time. I'm very curios as to why I feel this way. I can only come up with two explanations but I'm not sure if they make sense. Well one is I think because I only know myself when I'm depressed and that's my "comfort" zone. And two is because at hospitals I get attention and I'm around people who I feel like I belong with. Has anyone else on here been in this position before?