Girlfriend
Immortal
I don't need to be reminded
that its all meaningless
I feel the slow hours tick by
from my already too short life
Another breath
Another bottle
Another wasted day gone
Fill my lungs with cancer
And why?
I don't die faster
Fill my gut with liquor
The pain doesn't leave
Why try when there is no end
I refuse to race without finish
"Everything is meaningless, says the teacher"
Listless at my own apathy
I don't care to care
I can't
Because it doesn't matter
Why live for life's sake?
Why die to end it?
All is without purpose
"Everything is meaningless, says the teacher."
Leanan Sidhe
My heart aches
It yearns for my beloved
A fire long kindled burns within
She is not of the Earth
Her scent is in the wind
Her voice in the rain
Oh how I long for her!
She is ever before my eyes
When I wake she is beside me
When I sleep she holds my soul
I quiver with desire for my mate
She is more precious than diamonds
Than mountains of choice silver
Golden is her smile
Seafoam and starlight in her eyes
Oh how I yearn for her!
Polaris
A solitary star
Distant and cold
Amid a universe of shadows
It shines alone
Small and white
It glows alight
Clean and bright
On its own tonight
Near the horizon
Resting between heaven and earth
War
The dream
Always the same dream
A sun covered in blood
Over a field of grey
Lifeless thousands
Innocents where Death took them
Now waiting for judgement
Waiting to judge
Blackness with a red star
Shining down on the aftermath
Death has a large appetite
Its jaws bite down on all
Gnawing on their inanimate bodies
The dying are crying out against it
But their life is but a candle in a breeze
Soon to extinguish
They were but innocents
Caught in the crossfire
But not I
Too long have I fought this war
Come Hades, come quickly old friend
My time is near
And I am tired
Take me
Treading Water
What's the purpose in this life of mine
To keep swimming in an ocean without end
The tide pulling me far from shore
They say I'm fine
That I'll survive
But I'm only human
My strength is leaving fast
How long can I stay afloat?
I sink into nothing
A world where I can't breathe
Fire within but water without
Suffocating
Floating
Flying
In poisoned air
Finally a dream come true
A never ending dream
Isn't life beautiful?
It is now...
On Faithfulness
"Don't get so frustrated,
it's only a book,
or a few words
that you threw,
hoping they might stick.
Sound familiar?
Surreal,
especially if you've stuck with it.
Life can be funny like that,
in fact, it is,
that the same things
seem to alwaus happen
to people who may wish
it wasn't the case;
assuming it's negative.
Once you give it a second
to process,
it's wild to think
the same exact advice
you give
is the opposite
of how you live
your own life.
Some advice...
Twice now I've had to step in.
To stop the golden desires
of sundrops on skin,
forbidden,
when there has already been seeds sown,
a tree has been growing,
and now there's doubt,
the axe lays on its side
nearby. Nearly every time,
it can hurt to cry,
but not if infidelity
is the reason why. At least,
let's hope
that's not the case.
I'd hate to see the fallout,
it'd be all over the place."
Philosophy of a Life-song
If your life was a song,
what would it sing?
Would it's lyrics edify?
Will it speak of the many people who's
lives were touched by your existence?
Is it going to show that you stood for something?
Compose a motif that others will want to replicate.
3am
I find myself laid awake at 3am entangled in her web that is seemingly embedded deep within my mind.
Intimacy (In This Moment)
Lost in this moment
The warmth of our bodies make us sweat
The stiffness from what we have just accomplished
You and I,
A miracle
Your breath invites me in
Into your heart
Into your mind
Into your very soul
As our bodies mesh into one
As our souls embrace each other
You sigh as I touch you
Ectasy as we unite
Swirlling vortex of pleasure
Both of us lose sight
As life is created within you
As death is passed on through me
A miracle is created
A mirror of that moment
When we came together as one