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I wrote this one Thanksgiving day, then put it to music, on my old beater Suzuki Folk guitar, & have sung it every thanksgiving sinse, whether at church, or just before the Lord~It's one of my favorite songs I've written, even in it's simplicity, because it says so much about what's kept me going, & what helps me to press on~

...& once again, I'm, searching for my place in His body, seeking until I find...finding true fellowship, where there is liberty to be who we truly are in Him, & it is received, brings such joy, such a sense of homecoming, such awareness of some of the blessings Heaven will contain! As I wait to find glimpes of this again here on earth, it makes me long all the more for the day when I see Him face to face, & am made to be like Him, as we all will be, who love His appearing!
"Even so, Come quickly, Lord Jesus!"  

My favorite Hymn has always been "Amazing Grace", but it's only been the last five years or so that I've really begun to taste of the fullness of His grace, & been truly, totally amazed...

When I returned to my hometown, After being here a few months, seeing folks I used to know, meeting others I'm getting to know, my heart has been filled with His love for them, & I long to be fully & completely restored, in every way, & used to shine His light to everyone still in darkness....I wrote this one Saturday night, after sitting out on my balcony, praying for all the kids staggering home drunk, not even seeing me, or knowing they were being lifted up to the throne of grace...& I prayed for all the lives affected by those racing home after the bars emptied, feeling like being called to love my neighbour is being extended, stretched, grown...& that there are many, many ways to be a good samaritan~  

I wrote this after waking from a nightmare, to my girl's sweetness & light, & enbrace, & acceptance of her Mama as she is, even with my
still being healed-broken-heart~

So many people have told me they could never have survived all I've been through, & they have never known anyone who's been through as much as me...but I know the truth, that, in myself, I can do nothing, but with Him, I can do all things...even as I go through the changes He's still bringing me through, day by day, year by year, I have to remind myself that He never gives us more than we can handle....& that I will always have to crucify my tendancy to independance, & the survival techniques I devised to survive my lack of a childhood.
His patience, His waiting for me to return to His presence, His eternal focus, in the face of my limited one, breaks me, brings me to the end of myself, & the foot of the cross, again & again...I wrote this when I sat there one day, gazing at His majesty.  

Through every trial I go through, I fall deeper in love with Him each time, realizing that He leads me to, & carries me through things I could never overcome on my own...& that we love Him because He first loved us! It fills me with such awe!

Why do we think there are shortcuts? And why do we resist waiting on the Lord WHOLEHEARTEDLY, struggling with dropping ALL our own plans for having our heart's desire's come to pass? He placed in us the hope & faith in His promised land opening up to us, & yet we so quickly grow weary, impatient, even losing sight of what He so clearly revealed~ He tells us to abide in Him, & that He will abide in us~ that implies through even however long it takes for us to leave our own attachments to 'Egypt' behind,{this world & all it's enticements}& to cease from our wilderness wanderings, & enter into His promises, His provision, His blessing, the good land of continual awareness of Christ in us, the hope of glory!
   Once we are there, & remain, no turning back, no more going in circles,WHY it took so long will no longer matter~ until then, we need to just press through the distractions from the straight & narrow path, & allow ourselves to follow the pillar of fire, & rest in the cloud of His covering, & He will bring us through all He brings to us, to teach us to let Him live His life through us.
Even in the promised land, battles still ensued~ but living knowing He's already won the victory, we'll learn to consistantly
be more than conquerers!
We're called to be OVERCOMERS! Let's allow nothing to overcome us but our love & desire for Him!Let's allow our hearts to be overcome with His love!

The writing of this poem took place after a week of rebelliousness & constant disobedience, & then, finally, one of our 'God-talks', as she has always called our spiritual conversations, & I saw her heart deeper than I ever had before...& stood back, in awe, at her openness, & her desire to live for Him, & not just herself, even as she was finally seeing the impossibility of being able to do this without the power of the Holy Spirit leading her through each day...as we all must eventually see, if our faith & relationship to Him is ever to truly grow, & deepen. She has been continually used to bring me back to the simplicity of child-like faith...& helps me let go of the ways we adults tend to make things so complicated! Like Jesus said, "If anyone would come to me, they must have the faith of a little child..."