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I have been lost for awhile.  My family lost someone today.  I am doing well with it, but I needed to share.

I am an EMT and a firefighter.  I have spent my whole adult life trying to help others.  To stop pain and Death and to save life and joy.

I have been there for too many deaths.  I have seen too much pain.  It is a burden on my soul and a weight on my heart.

I try to sink the pain deep inside of me, but it has power and time and can find a crack to come out again and again.

I do not know how to stop it from pushing out from the inside. Maybe if I push it to the outside it will have more trouble coming back in.

Maybe

-bt

A friend of mine was suicidal and always telling others that we didn't understand, we did. 

A moment of thought.

This is how I feel each time someone I love dearly dies.... But mostly this poem is how I felt when my Great-Aunt (cancer) and my God-Father (suicide) passed away. I felt as if I should just give up sometimes and felt hopeless.... I was spiraling downward toward self destruction and not caring who went down with me. But basically my family helped me get through it and I helped them in away. But even so, it still affects me (my wings are broken)

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