I Need to Vent

Palms 37:4 ESV

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart."
This year I have been craving adventure and traveling. I have always had the desire to go to Spain and study abroad during college; but college is so far away. I want to go now but I know the reason why I can't go now is because I'm not ready. I'm not ready to go out of the country. I'm not ready to get on a plane for the first time and by myself. I'm not ready to be on my own. I'm just not prepared. I see all these people from school going on trips even around the country that seem so amazing to me. They go to the mountains, the ocean, or even a cottage. 
I want to go. I want to get out of my comfort zone and just have fun. Meet new people. I need to get out. 
I'm not ungrateful I just need a change. I want to see the world. That may scare some people but I want to go. I want to slow down and take in the scenery and not stress about pleasing others and standards. 
I want to find myself. Because here I'm not me. I don't feel like I'm living up to my full potential. God has bigger plans for me and they're not fulfilled here. 
I don't know what's going on. My feelings have never been this strong before. Maybe God's working in me I don't know. I just need to figure it out. I want a plan. But I have to wait.
Everyone wants to travel but do I have the guts to actually do it? I hope so! 
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I know this isn't a poem but I just needed to get it out. Maybe someone will actually listen out there.

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Inspriation Today

It seems a theme in a lot of the poetry I'm reading lately - got it, get it, want it, need it, where did it go, who took it? We self inspire and act. Everything else is air and wishes and dreams and no motion. Go do it. If you mess up there are lots of other adventures to go on. To be rootless requires courage and a bit of foolheartiness. :D