If I had to talk of truth

I'm not sure id find it in your heart

or your eyes.

 

your soul is something

I could never read 

 

though my own

lay woven in and out of lies 

 

i expected more from you.

It was a crazy lie I invented to occupy my loneliness 

 

I almost had myself believing it

but there was one step I was too proud to take 

 

I count myself so lucky 

I didn't fumble when you needed me most

 

the cold in your eyes is what I deserve 

but there is no coldness there.

 

and I fumble because I know

it's not what I should still have to run to

 

And I can't look in there as long as I used too

its so damn hard 

 

because its in my eyes

and in my heart, I know you've seen it.

 

I almost destroyed it

like so many other parts of myself 

 

so, this one thing I hold perfect

in honour of you,

 

singularly 

my sex

 

though my heart

tore it's self in two. 

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Poetic_Eyes's picture

loved it.

loved it. it inspired a new sonnet entitled, "Truth Detective Sonnet".   http://www.postpoems.org/authors/poetic_eyes/poem/972140

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Thanks my lovely pwings you

Thanks my lovely pwings you are such a lovely sister you always make me smile :D hugss


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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The thing about truth, is

The thing about truth, is that spoken, written or seen,....it is still unclear to us without the experience of it.  The precious, priceless, value of one's presence will always hold more value than any words spoken....because of that small 'truism' about truth.

 

Amazing poem Ssmoothie. 

 

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

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Truth has only ever brought

Truth has only ever brought pain even after tremendous excitement. It's ine of those things you get to live with I suppose. Thanks nightlight hugss


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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The whole part about the poem

The whole part about the poem is that you can't give anyone your sex. It's always taken unless there is love with it.

 

That's why sex without love is self hate. Sex without love is the act of two people pleasuring themselves for the sake of self satisfaction. It's why when you learn that small truth, you sort of frown upon people who openly say they do it.

 

The poem was a bit confusing for me because of that....I thought you maybe meant you became a transvestite for someone....which could be too.. it can be read a couple different ways.


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

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Yes i see what you mean and i

Yes i see what you mean and i am glad about that. Faithful in sex is not a comfort when the heart strays. No one really wins. Hugss


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."