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Memories
This nervous energy
is about me
I looked to others
I lost myself
my soul reaching for me
this nervous energy as is
wanting only the flesh
seeking that point of pleasure
that inside spot that she wishes her hand can soothe but cannot reach
obsessed with that opaque place, sometimes
driving her crazy with pain
Next day she comes with a plan
to depuncture the pressure
So one day she realized that spot stopped paining
after hitting rock bottom, and all she wanted came true
the joy and happiness that she dreamed of a lifetime
Happily she chats away in the evening, now understanding
the crux of her relationship problems, she wouldn't let anyone in
and often felt very offended by what she heard, she knew of this guy for a while
and saw him somewhere all that while, all she could think of maybe during that time he's was seeing someone else, because
she was in another place emotionally it hit her hard, it became a repetitive thought , the funny thing
is she knew they didn't even have a relationship
So she often kept up appearance and told people what they wanted to hear
smiled all the time, never knowing that they knew about her as she did
Of course it took her a whole lot of while to even acknowledge that this
could be true, so she ignored him, until like many thing in this happy life of hers
she understood that it's ok because she also wrote a song for him once when she was living in a shelter
and was told that it was very good, these memories she cherishes and now she's kinda of mad that he knew about it too
she found out about this and felt like saying good bye, now she regrets that she was so selfish, and feels better for this new reality
